Another Beginning

So here I go.  I have eagerly anticipated this time and I am in awe and am overwhelmed that the time is now.
So what to do.

I have time
I have a place
I have the desire
I have books on the subject
I have the older stuff I have written
I have the commitment to finish
I fear
I fear failure
I fear it won’t be any good
I fear I won’t finish
I fear I won’t start
I don’t have a plan
I don’t have direction
I don’t have ideas
I don’t have the end in sight
I don’t even have the beginning in sight

But I have sat down, I have showed up to the task.  I am sitting here with the blank document opened.  To gain some inspiration, I also opened a book I read/worked through years ago (maybe even BK – before Hurricane Katrina).  As I reviewed the things I highlighted and my answers to the questions in The Creative Call  by Janice Elsheimer, the following things come to mind:

Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.
1 Corinthians 15:58

Is my writing the work of the Lord?

And God is able to make every grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
2 Corinthians 9:8

Is my writing a good work?

You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink, but with the Spirit of the Living God, not on tablets of stone, but on tablets of human hearts.
2 Corinthians 3:2-4

How might I take part in being a letter from Christ?  How might I work with the Spirit to write on tablets of human hearts?

To whom much is given, from him much will be required.
Luke 12:48

In what God has given me, am I using it responsibly?  In what way does He want me to use it?

Our vocation is not simply to be, but to work together with God in the creation of our own life, our own identity, our own destiny.
Thomas Merton

Am I allowing God to work in me?  Am I allowing Him to create through me?

When I’m operating at my best, my work is my prayer.  It comes out of the same place that prayer comes out of – the center, the heart.
Matthew Fox, PHD

Do I approach writing as I do prayer, allowing the Holy Spirit to intercede?

For out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks
Matthew 12:34

What is the overflow of my heart?  Am I allowing the Spirit to mold my heart into the likeness of Christ.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was with God in the beginning.
John 1:1

Amazing that before anything, there was the Word, the Story, the Wisdom, with God.

God said, let there be…
Genesis 1:3

Creation began with a Word and God enables us to carry on in His creation with His creative spark.

The important thng is that creation is God’s, and that we are part of it, and being part of creation is for us to be co-creators with Him in the continuing joy of new creation.
Madeleine L’Engle

I want to co-create.  I have co-created.  I want it to be more…

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.
Psalm 19:14

May the overflow of my heart, may the words that pour out on the page, be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Author and Creator.

All who are skilled among you are to come and make everything the Lord has commanded.
Exodus 35:10

Am I using the gift God has given me to do as He has commanded me?

I have journaled.   I have blogged.  I want to use both, but I don’t want both to limit me.  But where to go from here?

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About Jill English Johnston

God writes His story on every heart, if we only pause to read it. My heart has lived in a fantasy world since early childhood and am delighted that God has finally brought me to the place where I can bring the fantasies to life through story. I am currently working on a fantasy trilogy (of course) but I also post thoughts, reflections and (hopefully) inspiration to my website: tabletsofhumanhearts.wordpress.com I am a follower of the Rabbi Jesus, married to my best friend and inspiration, and the mother of three incredible children, one daughter and two sons, with one son-in-love. When not writing, I passionately pursue prayer, reading (never enough time to read them all!), and the outdoors. My husband and I both served in the US Navy and have lived/travelled through many states and all over Asia. We both still enjoy travelling, but we really love our home in Schertz, located at the crossroads of Texas, just northeast of San Antonio.
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One Response to Another Beginning

  1. Carol Ellerman says:

    Thank you Jill for the inspiration you always give. I am so blessed and thankful for you being in my life at church before you moved to Texas with your wonderful family. I pray that God will always bring the things in life that you have earned for being such a true follower of His word.
    Carol

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