Personal Reflection: Re

Our God is faithful. He is trustworthy. He is patient.

If I trip. If I’m discouraged. If I’m sad. If I need to see what He’s done.

He helps me up again. He brings me to a place of hope again. Of praise again. Where I can see what he’s done again.

If God would Re for me, what would it be?

If I could Re, what would it be?

What a great question. With so many answers. Different for each of us. Different in various seasons of our lives. Different in the myriad of circumstances we go through.

Some days I need to be reminded. Or be refilled. Or  be renewed.

I look to God to rescue, to redeem, to restore.

He calls me to rejoice, to relate, to remember.

And these are just a few of the Re’s that will be.

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2019. Let’s Re. Let’s be Re.

This year, I decided to take a look at all the Re’s the Lord gives us. Re’s have popped up in various places. Bible study. Sermons. Worship. The Re words are everywhere. And I realized (see, there’s one), they are amazing words. And the Lord offers them to us. So, I want to offer them to you.
I thought I’d only do a month’s worth, one a day. But as I compiled the list, I came up with over 52 words that start with Re.
That’s a word a week.
Not sure what this will look like or if I’ll last the entire year. But I’ll start. And see where the Spirit takes me.
Merriam Webster’s defines Re as again; back to an original place, condition, etc.
The British Dictionary defines Re as indicating a return to a previous condition.
Online Entomology Dictionary describes the word origin and history for Re:
A word forming element meaning “back to the original place; again, anew, once more,” also with a sense of undoing,” c.1200, from Old French and directly from Latin re- “again, back, anew, against.”
And as I mentioned, I’ve discovered over 52 to words (and my list keeps getting longer).
Each week I’ll post a new word. With questions the following day. And Scriptures to follow. And if possible, a corresponding song.  And some of my personal reflections on the word.
May the Spirit guide and inspire us as we go.

Grace & Peace

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Miracles: light of one man’s world

The fading light of dusk casts the city in shadows as I cautiously make my way through the streets, staying close to the walls. Jerusalem swells with crowds, as it always does during holy festivals, and the travelers push and jostle along.

Every once in a while lamp light spills from a window, illuminating a small area of the street. Otherwise, the shadows thicken. I run my hand along the rough stone, to alert me when the building ends and a side street begins. My eyes burn from city dust competing with my exhaustion. The Rabbi spent most of the day teaching in the temple courts and, now, he and his followers retreat to the garden outside the city to spend the night. Many of the others have friends or family to visit.

I tug my shawl tighter about my shoulders, trying to ward of the wind’s chill, and search for a sheltered place to settle down for the night. The wall suddenly gives way and my foot connects with something. I stumble but keep from going headlong onto the street.

“Hey,” greets me from evening’s darkness.

I squint my eyes. “Who’s there? I’m so sorry. I can’t see a thing.”

“No worries. Just my legs you’ve tripped over. A bit challenging in the dark, I’m sure.” The deep voice of the owner sounds like he’s smiling. “Have you lost your way?”

“Your question implies I’m going somewhere. I have no place to go, so I suppose I’m not lost.”

“Then you’re welcome to join me. Not much cover, but it will do for the night. There’s a little space next to me.”

I look up and down the street. The crowds are starting to thin as travelers find refuge in warm, lamp lit homes and inns. I know no one and my pockets are empty. I grope the empty space until I make contact with stone again. His legs stick out from an alcove in the wall. Following the stones down, I find the space he’s talking about. I settle in next to him making myself as small as possible against the opposite side. Not wanting my bare legs exposed, I fold them in and hug them close.

“Thank you,” I whisper.

“No worries,” he says again. “You must be desperate, to take me up on my humble offer.”

Desperate? Am I? I haven’t felt it in such a long time. Desperate has slowly dissipated the more time I spend with the Rabbi. Yet, here I am. “In need, tonight. I think.”

“Then I’m happy to help someone in need,” he says.

We fall into comfortable silence, without obligation to tell our stories or want of unnecessary talk. The alcove blocks the wind and I’m soon warm enough that sleep slips over me, pulling me into her arms.

A curse jolts me awake. A shadow looms over us in the grey light of dawn. A shadow curses again and kicks my companion in the shin. “Stupid blind beggar.” He spits and stomps away.

Blind? I take a hard look at my companion and in the dim light I notice two things. One I see the milky white film covering his eyes. He stares straight ahead, I assume seeing nothing. And two, he looks young and vulnerable. He grimaces and wipes away the spittle that landed on his chest.

“People can be cruel.” With my reputation, I’ve had my fare share.

He shakes a small basket and coins clink together. “But they also have great capacity to care.”

I open my mouth to say the coins are guilt offerings, made by those who want to feel better about themselves. They drop a few coins and think they’ve done good. Rather than getting involved and really caring.

What stills my tongue? In the past, I would have spit back at the rude man, regardless of the consequences.

As daylight grows, I see that my companion is indeed young. Years younger than I feel. I attribute his optimism with his youth.

I hear the familiar voice before I see the familiar face and peek out from under the folds of my shawl. In the grey light of dawn, the Rabbi and his disciples pause on the street in front of our alcove. “Rabbi,” one of the disciples say, “why was this man born blind? Was it because of his own sins or his parents’ sins?”

“It was not because of his sins or his parents’ sins.” The rabbi crouches down and looks into the man’s unseeing eyes.

The blind man. We haven’t even exchanged names. But on the streets, we rarely use names.

“This happened so the power of God could be seen in him,” the rabbi continues. “We must quickly carry out the tasks assigned us by the one who sent us.a The night is coming, and then no one can work. But while I am here in the world, I am the light of the world.”

The rabbi suddenly spits and shock washes over me. Not my rabbi. He wouldn’t. Would he? But then I notice he’s spit on the ground, not on my young friend. He makes mud with the saliva and scoops it up with his fingers. He takes the man’s hand and whispers “be still.” The rabbi spreads the mud over the his blind eyes. He then grasps the hand he holds and pulls him to his feet.

“Go wash yourself in the pool of Siloam.”

I lean forward to watch as my friend uses the wall as his guide and makes his way down the street. I glance up at the rabbi, who also watches. A smile plays on his lips.

As the first rays of sun cascade over the city walls, I adjust my shawl about my head and shoulders and sit back to wait. I’m quite certain when my friend returns, he will no longer be the blind beggar, but the man who once was blind but now sees.

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Miracles: he walks over the waves

As the evening light fades, the Rabbi gathers his disciples and heads for the shore. Some of the people follow, until they realize that he’s not leaving but rather sending the disciples off in the boat. A couple of the disciples argue with the Rabbi, but in the end, they, too, climb into the boat.

When the Rabbi returns to the crowd, he encourages them to return home and dismisses them with a blessing. Many of them leave. But a large enough crowd remains. I over hear their discussions.

“This has to be the prophet who is supposed to come into the world,” and “Let’s take him and make him king,” and “Surely he means to start a revolution and overthrow the Romans.”

The Rabbi looks troubled as he watches them. But before they can approach him with their ideas and plans, he heads back up the mountain by himself. They finally leave, grumbling as they go.

The others I travel with settle down in our camp for the night, but I return to the beach. I find a large rock and sit; the heat it absorbed from the sun now keeps me warm in the chill night air. In the light of the rising full moon I watch the disciples in their boat, heading out to sea. A glance toward the mountain reveals the Rabbi’s silhouetted posture of prayer.

He fed the multitudes from a few loaves and a couple of fish. The disciples had discussed what it meant, besides filling the people’s stomachs, but they came to no conclusion. Is it as the crowds said, that he could obviously feed an army? The Rabbi doesn’t seem interested in an uprising with the Romans. Instead, he consistently offends and criticizes the religious leaders. What does it all mean? What is he up to? Exhaustion overtakes me and I soon nod off to the gentle lapping of the waves.

A rush of wind jolts me awake, almost knocking me off the rock and blasting me with dust and sand. A storm has swept across the sea. I jump to my feet, rub grit from my eyes and peer out over the dark water. What of the disciples? Did they make it to the other side? Clouds rush past the moon, now past its highest point in the night sky, creating alternating patches of light and shadow on the turbulent waters. There, bobbing in the waves, only a few miles from shore, I see a boat, obviously fighting against the winds.

Up on the mountainside, I spot the Rabbi. He too stands and seems to be watching them. I’ve heard their stories of him calming the storm before. Skilled fisherman, I could sense a fear as they recalled that particular storm. But a simple “peace, be still,” from the Rabbi had ceased it immediately. Their amazement at what he had done was evident.

So why is he merely watching?

I sit back down on the rock and hug my knees to my chest. Is the Rabbi praying for their safety? Can he calm the storm again? Time drags by. The wind continues to howl. And the Rabbi and I continue to watch the disciples struggle against the tempest. He from his high point, me from the shore. I don’t know how long we watch, but the moon eventually starts her descent toward the western horizon. Soon, the first light of dawn will appear in the east.

A movement on the mountain draws my attention. The Rabbi makes his way down to the shore. He strides, sure and confident, in the howling wind, over the rugged terrain. His stride neither slows nor falters as he crosses the rocky shore to the water.

I jump to my feet again. He doesn’t walk into the waves. He walks over them.

I rub my eyes again, not believing what I’m seeing. Surely a trick of the moonlight. Yet there he goes. As if on land. In a hurry. Across the water.

He doesn’t slow down as he approaches the boat. Is he going to pass them? Do they see him? If they were terrified before, what must they be feeling now?

The Rabbi finally slows, and pauses. Is that someone climbing out of the boat? I squint, straining to see what’s going on. With the wind and waves, I can’t tell.

Then suddenly, the winds stop. The waves fall still. But as I look at where they were, they are no longer there. I sweep my gaze over the now calm sea. My breath catches. What happened? Did the boat sink? But there, near the distant shore, against the setting moon, I see a boat.

His authority has no bounds. Who could do this, if not one from heaven?

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Miracles: One from heaven

Following this traveling Rabbi means weeks on the road. We’ve traveled all over Galilee and regions around the sea. He preaches everywhere we go. Telling people about the kingdom of heaven being near. A true enough statement, it does seem so. For who can do the miracles he does, if not one from heaven?

As we sit around the fires at night, we talk about what he’s done, what he’s said, the new interpretations to old teachings he’s given. Everyone has different ideas.

There’s talk of the Messiah. About a revolution. An overthrow of the Romans. Those discussions are spoken in whispers and with wary eyes.

If it weren’t for the healings, many would consider him a gifted Rabbi with new, controversial,  and sometimes even dangerous ideas.

Others say he’s a prophet. Like the old stories. God has been silent for so long. It’s about time he’s sent another prophet.

And the miracles. Healing servants, sons, daughters, rich, poor, the blind, those with leprosy, a woman with bleeding issues. Casting out demons. Even raising a daughter from her deathbed and a son from a funeral pyre. For who can do these things, if not one from heaven?

And that’s not the all of it. The disciples even talk about him calming a storm on the sea. I wasn’t there for that one, but oh how I wish I could have been. Only his closest followers were on the boat when it happened. Imagine. He even commands the gods of the winds and waves to obey him. For who can do so, if not one from heaven?

Some don’t like his methods. Breaking the Sabbath. Questioning the practice of the law. Wining and dining with disreputable people. Of that, I’m grateful. Any other Rabbi would have chased me away long ago. But he’s not any other Rabbi.

And now he’s retreated to the mountains. There’s been news, that the Baptizer was beheaded. Somehow they were related. The Rabbi and the Baptizer. So he mourns. His disciples are with him. The rest of us give them space and make a small camp on the grassy area nearby. But as we rest in the shade, we hear a distant commotion. I stand and look out over the rolling hills. Surely it can’t be. But it is. They come. Thousands of them. A string of humanity across the countryside. Like the Israelites in the desert. Heading our way.

Have they no respect? No consideration for the Rabbi’s need for rest. And the disciples. They’ve only recently returned from their own preaching trips. Can’t they be left alone for one afternoon?

I look to the hillside. He’s noticed them as well. He and his disciples make their way down and sit down on rock outcroppings near our camp. The people point and run and gather around him. Of course he welcomes them. Then teaches them throughout the afternoon. When he calls those who need healing to come forward, I turn and look out over the crowds and gasp. So many. They must have emptied every city and town in the area. And still they come.

The Rabbi is undeterred. He heals the sick, gives sight to the blind and hearing to the deaf, makes the lame to walk, restores the flesh of those with leprosy. They draw near. He touches them. And he heals them.

As the sun begins her decent to the west, my stomach rumbles. Those in our small camp have set up a fire and are baking bread and roasting some fish. The warm yeasty smell drifts across the grassy area. We receive jealous looks from people nearby. I realize then, many of them have failed to bring any sort of food for dinner. So desperate, so excited, so eager, they left their homes and workshops without plan or provision.

Andrew, one of the disciples, eyes our dinner then steps up next to the Rabbi. “The place is isolated and the hour is already late; send the crowds away, so that they may go into the villages and buy themselves food.”

The Rabbi studies him for a long moment, then turns and surveys the crowd. “They do not have to leave; you give them something to eat.”

His disciples stare at him with open mouths.

Philip starts to say something then stops when the Rabbi looks at him. “Yes, Philip? Where will we buy bread for these people to eat?”

Philip chokes. Then says “Two hundred denarʹii worth of bread is not enough for each of them to get even a little.”

The Rabbi’s smile eases away the tired lines from his eyes. “How many loaves do you have? Go see!”

Andrew comes over to our camp and assesses our dinner preparations. My stomach rumbles again. We only have enough for ourselves. And the Rabbi and his disciples. One of the children in our group picks up the small basket his mother has been filling with bread and roasted fish. Before we can stop him he runs it over to Andrew.

Andrews looks in the basket and shakes his head but takes the boy by the hand. He walks the beaming child back to the Rabbi. “Here is a little boy who has five barley loaves and two small fish.”

Those in our camp grumble protests, but not loud enough for the Rabbi to hear. The other disciples chuckle.

Andrew glances at the crowds and shrugs. “But what are these among so many?”

The little boy’s shoulders slump.

But the Rabbi’s eyes twinkle and he squats down and gestures to the boy. “Bring them here to me.”

Excitement spreads across the boy’s face and he approaches the Rabbi, holding out the basket. The Rabbi nods. “Have everyone sit down,” he tells his disciples.

It takes a little while for everyone to figure out what is going on, but soon everyone settles into camps of people like ours, but with out fire or food. Anticipation and expectation grow.

The Rabbi watches, the boy standing next to him. Then the Rabbi takes one of the loaves and lifts his eyes to heaven and says “Praised be you, Adonai our God, King of the universe, who brings forth bread from the earth.” He breaks the bread and drops the two pieces into a couple of nearby baskets. He does the same with the other four loaves, then tosses the two fish into the remaining baskets. He looks as excited as the little boy when he tells his disciples, “feed the people.”

They do. Like the servants filling the water jars at the wedding, they get to work, dumping baskets of fish and bread at every camp. Over and over and over again. Like the widow’s oil flowing from the jar, the bread and fish continue to flow from the baskets.

Ecstatic chaos follows. The excitement blossoms with every delivery. Like manna from heaven. A happy confusion of baskets and hands, and people and laughter, and bread, fish and feasting. The people recline, and eat, and talk and rejoice.

From my place by the fire, I pop a piece of warm fish in my mouth. I don’t know that I would believe it if I weren’t seeing it. Imagine. He even commands bread and fish to multiply. Who can do so, if not one from heaven?

The little boy sits next to the Rabbi and eats his own chunk of bread. Their heads are close together and I can’t hear what they’re saying. But from the look on the boy’s face, he’s enjoying his meal companion.

When the sun dips over the horizon, the Rabbi stands and stretches. “Gather the leftovers,” he tells his disciples, who, like the rest of the people, have eaten their fill. “Let nothing be wasted.” And the twelve baskets are filled again.

Of course, the one from heaven would let nothing be wasted.
Not his time of rest and mourning.
Not the crowds looking for him.
Not a little boy’s dinner.
Not the overflowing leftovers.
And maybe, just maybe, not a hopeful follower like me.

Grace & Peace

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